Now And Then

You see it was drawn easy, my services for a rewarding fee. Never thinking then of the hundreds I've hurt. Their morals and family so deserted, you see, back then my mind was conned, caught in a pipe dream. Understand my path set forth from a struggling background. Mom always worked her hardest maintaining her four hounds. Scared and afraid that my own child's future was at stake quickly reacting was where I made my biggest mistake. Filled with dillusions I fell, I fell deep in my grave carried by deceits devouring waves. I can still remember her nights in tears of rage never giving up even with her life in a ruthless maze. Took a harsh lesson for me to understand life. What once was taken granted stabbed with a knife. I've towed along loved ones throughout my experiences, placed them in torturous wars when it all was needless. Now and then I failed to think deep clear inside. Now and then I rather maintain a modest existence. Now and then never again will I barter my freedom.